Change!
The word has always irritated me .... right from the days it was used in our OCD (Orgn Change & Development) class . Cliched phrases / statements including "Change Management", "Change is the only constant in life" etc. made me loathe it further. I particularly loved the ad when the boss says "I want change" and all his subordinates including the sweeper pools in some rupee coins. Am not BIG on change - am a person of the present. I love to settle in a cozy spot in life and look for subtle change factors around me like weekend outings, new books, movies etc.
Inspite of going through considerable changes in life, uncertainty freaks me. Uncertainty - not of surroundings, but of people. My biggest jolt came in when I joined college 9 years back - life changed overnight from that of a happy town girl to a perplexed college girl in a multicultural environment. Little did I realize how depressing life would become when my parents left me behind and went home thousands of miles away. It took me umpteen hours of crying before I got over it... Over the last few years, the time taken to adapt to a major change has reduced from about 6 weeks to 3 weeks - which is good, relatively atleast!
My earlier blog seems to have done the trick - my cozy life in Hyderabad was put through CHANGE. It seems like it was the "farewell" blog - n btw, I did visit Salarjung once again. Zooming back to the topic, I have gone thru a lot of change over the last 2 months ......my job (D-->C), location (HYB-->MAS), marital status (Single --> Married), wake up time (7 am --> 6 am), daily travel time (50 mins --> 2 hrs), relations (a bunch of them added overnight), laziness quotient (ofcourse reduced), TV time (2 hrs a day --> 20 min a day), weather (dry --> humid)... its a long list. Marriage was the only one out of these that I was totally excited about. This excitement was so overwhelming that I did not care to bother about the rest. Anyway, now that life has changed and am feeling the impact, my mind started doing what it was meant for - think!
Change when effected, automatically triggers the obnoxious questions in life that one avoids the most... "What am I upto in life", "What do I actually want to do", "What are my weak areas - how should I handle them better next time" etc. Some of these find temporary answers and some of them dont. Right now, this exercise has led me to formulate a new goal... doing a PhD in the next 5 years! Ironical, considered the fact that I vouched not to lay foot anywhere near academics when I passed out of B school. The current obsession might not last long, but I am beginning to like the idea. When, where, what, how - yet to be figured out. 5 years down the lane, I ll check back on the progress rate!
Now that I have fairly settled in the new phase of life... I can confidently say that am enjoying it. Still dont feel settled - mainly coz am still living out of suitcase. Workplace is entirely different and slowly am getting into the groove. The best part is having K around me most of the time (I hate his travel routine though!). Though am missing my i-dont-care n independent life, I am happily settling in am-kinda-responsible life. Cheers to the days ahead!
Inspite of going through considerable changes in life, uncertainty freaks me. Uncertainty - not of surroundings, but of people. My biggest jolt came in when I joined college 9 years back - life changed overnight from that of a happy town girl to a perplexed college girl in a multicultural environment. Little did I realize how depressing life would become when my parents left me behind and went home thousands of miles away. It took me umpteen hours of crying before I got over it... Over the last few years, the time taken to adapt to a major change has reduced from about 6 weeks to 3 weeks - which is good, relatively atleast!
My earlier blog seems to have done the trick - my cozy life in Hyderabad was put through CHANGE. It seems like it was the "farewell" blog - n btw, I did visit Salarjung once again. Zooming back to the topic, I have gone thru a lot of change over the last 2 months ......my job (D-->C), location (HYB-->MAS), marital status (Single --> Married), wake up time (7 am --> 6 am), daily travel time (50 mins --> 2 hrs), relations (a bunch of them added overnight), laziness quotient (ofcourse reduced), TV time (2 hrs a day --> 20 min a day), weather (dry --> humid)... its a long list. Marriage was the only one out of these that I was totally excited about. This excitement was so overwhelming that I did not care to bother about the rest. Anyway, now that life has changed and am feeling the impact, my mind started doing what it was meant for - think!
Change when effected, automatically triggers the obnoxious questions in life that one avoids the most... "What am I upto in life", "What do I actually want to do", "What are my weak areas - how should I handle them better next time" etc. Some of these find temporary answers and some of them dont. Right now, this exercise has led me to formulate a new goal... doing a PhD in the next 5 years! Ironical, considered the fact that I vouched not to lay foot anywhere near academics when I passed out of B school. The current obsession might not last long, but I am beginning to like the idea. When, where, what, how - yet to be figured out. 5 years down the lane, I ll check back on the progress rate!
Now that I have fairly settled in the new phase of life... I can confidently say that am enjoying it. Still dont feel settled - mainly coz am still living out of suitcase. Workplace is entirely different and slowly am getting into the groove. The best part is having K around me most of the time (I hate his travel routine though!). Though am missing my i-dont-care n independent life, I am happily settling in am-kinda-responsible life. Cheers to the days ahead!
posted by Priya | 2:22 AM
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